Looking in

I read a couple of reflective blog entries yesterday (here and here) that echo completely how I think and feel about art, making, creating…

I need to make things. Everyday. It seems hard to justify, though. It seems so comsuming and wasteful to my rational mind. It costs money, it takes time… But the drive to create is woven into the very fiber of my being. I know I won’t find my place or purpose in life, as a mom, a wife, a leader, without making things and exploring my ideas. I get paralyzed by the impracticality of it though. I wish I could overcome that. I wish I didn’t always feel like making and creating were a selfish waste of time, because I don’t think that is the right way to look at it.

It is a strange thing, this blogging thing. I have been real hesitant to write too much, to become too involved, to bare my soul here, because there are wierdos out there. ANYONE could come here and read it, and that seems like a huge risk.

I’ve been lurking and reading the blogs of other crafty moms, agreeing with what they say, admiring the things they make, the mail they get, the lives they display, and I think, “I wish I could be friends with her. She thinks so much like I do, and she makes cool stuff!” But, creating friendships over the internet seems so dangerous and silly. But, in reading the blogs of other women who have children and make art I’ve found that I’m not alone in my drive to create and all that it encompasses…

Anyway, I think I like this blogging thing. I want to make crafty friends. They echo my thoughts.

2 thoughts on “Looking in

  1. hi – I bought a spindle kit from you last winter and have followed your blog periodically since because I like to see what you make. I am not as driven to create every single day, but I do like to make things and what I wrote to say is – I have the same hangup about it being wasteful. I can’t really bring myself to create things that aren’t functional. I love spinning, knitting, toymaking, etc, but things like collage (which I enjoy) I just can’t bring myself to do.

    I’m glad you’re blogging!

  2. Jessica – I read this blog last night and then read the article from the July Ensign about Bathsheba Smith. Have you read it? I guess I was thinking of you because when I read the words, “artistic in temperament, loved the beautiful” they just jumped off the page at me. If you read on it says that she “loved to spin, weave, and embroider. There is also a picture of Willard Richards from her sketch book! I think you are in good company in your desire to create!

    LOve to you all,
    Marilyn

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