because I really like them.

Shop Seedpod has moved to seedpod.etsy.com. Barry’s needed something to do during his week home to take care of me and the kids. Along with removing all the wall paper glue from the kids’ room, changing the starter in his truck, catching up on laundry, cleaning out the rabbit cage, reading countless books, and grocery shopping, he took a few minutes to figure out etsy and sent my books over there. I’ve got a few more quilt journals waiting for pages to be sewn in, so I’ll post them soon.

On another note, thanks so much for the sympathy and well wishes. It has been a rough week, but I’ve had all the time I’ve wanted to lay in bed and sleep or just veg listening to Harry Potter and the Order of the Pheonix (#5) on CD. Sunday’s visit to the ER let us know that the baby wasn’t alive, but I’ve had to wait for my body to do what it needed to. I’ve felt really crampy and yucky all week. Then last night I went through 2 hours of labor– intense contractions and everything. It was hard. I had Logan totally natural, and that was intense, but once it was over I had a little baby, so it was all worth it. Last night was just hard because the contractions were not any easier to work through than having a real baby, but no real baby. I’m just so glad I had Barry there. He knows how to help me relax. He got me dressed, cleaned up the mess… now that’s true love.

I feel WORLDS better today. Like almost back to normal. I showered and put on cute clothes and wasn’t ready for a nap after standing long enough to take a shower. That was nice. Tomorrow Barry will go to work. I’ll stay home and do school and take it easy. I’m so glad the worst is over. Now on to recovery.

I took a photo of this drawing over the weekend in anticipation of making a grand entry today titled “new baby and new year’s goals,” but after a trip to the emergency room last night the new baby part isn’t true anymore. I thought after 15 weeks of nausea and daily afternoon naps I was ready to make some big announcements– and so I did let the women at church know I was pregnant yesterday when I taught our Relief Society class. Bummer.

I had even gotten used to the idea of having 4 kids, busily making plans and lists of things I want to get done before the new arrival. I’ve been a woman on a mission and really excited about all the nesting I’ve got started around here.

So, though I’m not keeping the baby, I’m keeping the nesting and rearranging, the new year’s goals.

And that’s where the drawing above comes in. It’s Brenna at about 18 months. Her first word was duck and she carried that Beanie Buddy around everywhere. I loved her crazy hair… so I stood her in front of Seasame Street one morning and got busy. Then Jonah was born, we moved, and this has been tucked in a drawer ever since. I feel too guilty framing it and hanging it because I have two more kids now– kids who I have made no art about. So, I will make drawing/ paintings of the boys before Logan turns 2 in July. And I’m propping this up on my mantel shelf as a constant reminder.

Also in the works is a complete overhaul of the bedrooms. I already started by buying Brenna a new bed quilt (big step BUYING something and not feeling like a total loser for not MAKING it myself), making bedside tables for our room, and making my first light, airy Roman shade for our bedroom window. I have plans to buy this Denyse Schmidt quilt for our room, frame and hang my new Karl Blossfedlt prints, and make some Big Zig quilts for the boys. The horribly ugly wall paper in the kid’s room was scraped and scraped on Saturday and I acquired a new toy-box-bench for $25 from a nearby antique store. I have been a woman on a mission and have quite a momentum going.

Hopefully I can fill my time with kids I love, a husband who loves me, and we can work together on making our house a special place that showcases what we love and who we are… and that will help me cope with this sad, sad, sadness…

Here are 2 more of my Karl Blossfeldt prints that I won on eBay. My favorites keep going for over $100, which is a little out of my price range, but I got these two for $9.99! How can ya beat that?!

Karl Blossfeldt. Why had I not heard of him before?!?

I just found some photogravures of his on e-Bay (if you’re reading this DO NOT bid on them). My breath is taken away. Literally. I am gasping and wheezing and getting dizzy with the utter amazement…

They’re seedpods. SEEDPODS do you hear? I’m obsessed with drawing and collecting these things, and here they are REAL ART– and etchings none the less. I will be dreaming of them… for a long time. I will have some on my walls. You mark my words. They speak to me…

UPDATE: Barry bid and won a couple of prints the other night. They are photogravures printed from copper plates, the flower bud one in 1942 and the stem in 1929. I’ve still got my eye on some more. My first real art investments!