Category Archives: A Little of Everything

The all consuming…

I was up with contractions for a lot of the night. It is so exhausting and emotionally draining, because even though I know they aren’t “real” contractions, maybe the next one could be–so I stay awake waiting for the next one… I have discovered that eating cuts my false labor shorter, so last night I was only up until 3:30 instead of 5 or 6.

I should be really thankful. This has been my best pregancy ever. I have felt so good. Not quite so tired, my legs don’t feel like they’re falling out of their sockets, I don’t really feel huge and immobile, and I can still roll over in bed all by myself.

Still, it is just the waiting. Do I want to be induced? After Brenna’s induction I vowed I would never do that again. Am I just selfish to want to get it over with, to just have this baby ASAP? Would I regret being induced, especailly since I started out this pregancy with such strong feelings about doing it naturally and trusting the miracle of my body and growing closer to my husband and to God through the process? I have so may things going through my mind constantly. I have waited this long, what’s a few days or even a week longer? What does Heavenly Father want me to do?

On another note, Jonah seems to be totally potty trained!!! I had hoped, but didn’t think it was possible, that I would only have one baby diapers. If this baby had been born even a week ago it would have thrown a real kink in the potty training dilligence on my part–so that’s a blessing. Jonah is even staying dry all night–which means he wakes up earlier because he has to go potty, but we haven’t had to clean up big squishy toddler poop for a whole week!! THAT is cause for celebration!!!

I have a doctor appointment in the morning. We will see what happens…

I want to have a baby!!!!

Depending on the time of day and the degree of irrationality my pregnant mind currently possesses, I am either crying, or quietly resigned to the fact that this little guy just isn’t fully cooked yet. It has been torture waiting. A lot of things have contributed to it:

  • Both of my other babies were born one week BEFORE their due date
  • I had a miscarriage right before this pregnancy–so I’ve been pregnant for a YEAR!
  • Barry was home from school Jun 14-25–so naturally I PLANNED to have a baby while he was home.
  • My body likes to have regular contractions at five minute intervals from about 1 AM to 5 or 6 AM (instead of sleeping) on a regular basis.
  • Barry had a 4 day weekend for the 4th of July–so naturally I PLANNED to have a baby while he was home.
  • I don’t want to do anything productive like laundry or plan Enrichment or anything other than have a baby.
  • I have two friends due a month before me who both have cute little babies born ON their due date…

    July 1st has come and gone. Tomorrow is the 9th, which could also possibly be my due date, since we don’t really know when my last period was.

    I have stopped praying that the baby will be born NOW and am simply asking for help to endure…until when?

    • Brenna’s Birth Story

    9:30 am, 5/2/00
    At a routine prenatal checkup it is noticed that Jessica’s blood pressure is running a lot higher than normal. Upon discussion there is concern that she might have preeclampsia (toxemia). Jessica is 38 weeks pregnant.

    10:15 am, 5/8/00
    At a second visit Jessica’s blood pressure is still higher than normal. She is only a week before her due date and already slightly dilated and effaced, so the decision is made to avoid preeclampsia and “take the baby”. The hospital is contacted about a spot in labor & delivery for an induction, but there is no room. “We’ll call you if something opens up,” they say.

    8:00 pm, 5/8/00
    The hospital calls. “Come on in within the next half-hour.”

    9:00 PM, 5/8/00
    After a lot of paperwork and questions we are about to begin the induction. Jessica is hooked up to fetal monitors and given an IV.

    10:00 PM, 5/8/00
    Jessica is given medication to ripen her cervix and hopefully trigger labor. The wait begins.

    12:00 am, 5/9/00
    Contractions begin, we both try to rest and get through them.

    6:00 am, 5/9/00
    After a long night of contractions we are both beat. An examination reveals that the labor has only progressed to almost complete effacement but only an additional centimeter of dilation. We both get to nap for an hour.

    8:00 am, 5/9/00
    Our OB/GYN, Dr. Fowers, decided to rupture Jessica’s membranes to try to induce labor further. We are both worn out after the long night of contractions.

    9:00 am, 5/9/00
    The membrane rupture shows immediate results as the frequency and intensity of contractions intensify. Due to the nature of the induced contractions and the physical state of us both, the decision is made for Jessica to have an epidural block.

    9:30 am, 5/9/00
    The epidural block is successful and Jessica no longer feeling the pain of the contractions is able to sleep. Barry gets some shuteye also.

    11:00 am, 5/9/00
    Jessica and Barry awake from their naps and find that Jessica is completely dilated and effaced. “Rest for an hour and then you can push,” says the doctor.

    12:30 PM, 5/9/00
    With the epidural block Jessica is able to feel the contractions and push with them with far less pain. Things progress rapidly.

    1:06 PM, 5/9/00
    A baby is born.

    1:08 PM, 5/9/00
    The baby, still nameless, is weighed and measured. 6 lbs, 9 oz. in weight, 19 inches in length. Mom (Jessica) is tired but happy from her labor.

    1:30 PM, 5/9/00
    The family gets some free time together. All is happy. A few hours later the name Brenna Mahalia is decided on. She is a happy, healthy baby.